Do you ever feel as though your emotions completely take over, leaving your rational mind useless to make sense of a situation? Well I do, all the time. Lucky for me, my husband is an extraordinarily patient man. The fact that he still asks me, “how was your day?” when I come home from work is truly an act of love. Because, more often than not, the answer to his question is not simple. You see, I feel all of the feelings. Especially when it comes to ballet. It amazes me that in a few hours, it is possible to feel inspired, bored, beautiful, insecure, powerful, energized, fatigued, frustrated, hopeful…So what is that, a good day or a bad day? Well it is certainly a full day so thats good!
Hadrian had a brilliant idea to help me manage and learn from these emotions. Each night, I write a short journal entry (specifically about my job, although this could work for other areas of life) in a table that is organized into two columns: positive and negative.
This way, when I feel a negative emotion boiling up, I can acknowledge and document it, instead of letting it eat me up inside. Then, when a few months have gone by, I’ll be able to make an objective study of my experience and figure out what, if anything, needs to change. This has become a way to honor my feelings and what they may be telling me, without being taken over by them. It has been extremely helpful. Thanks Hadrian.
Also, check out The Cove Project for more about our wonderful trip to Iceland!